Left office around 9pm due urgent state flight. Now in sz waterfront spa centre (kind of cool!). My bro treated me dinner buffet in conrad hotel and then we went to Jordon to take cross border bus for massage…soooo gooooooood
Acappella concert 13/04/2010
Went to hk city hall for acappella concert with fat and emily. The very first time for this type of show. Superb! It’s so cooooool!!!! it’s covered pretty much all type of music, pop, jazz, rap, classic…really fabulous and couldn’t believe the music was sang by human voices. The whole run was smooth, funny and well planned. Highly recommanded!!! Looking forward to smother acapella show on 22nd.
Tears in office 09/04/2010
Hard to forgot today since I told my boss my intention of leaving the company for study. He was upset and disappointed obviously. Red eyes for him and colleague (g). I was moved…..I am thankful and glad for working in here.
Movie and gathering 04/04/2010
Went to watch HK film festival movie this morning with fat. Then hanged around in tst until 7pm for chong-mate reunion. It’s always good to catch up. Just sad about knowing one of them parted with his bf (over 10 years) who felt in love with another girl. Well I was shock when I heard that since I had been expecting the annoucement of their wedding. It’s just another story to tell: love is so fragile, or, it’s us, our will is being fragile? Love is the combination of passion/affection and will. When passion/affection is no longer exist, can the one still “love” (or can I call this love still?) him/her by will? well…open question.
back from Okinawa 03/04/2010
back from okinawa for attending the wedding ceremony. enjoyed the trip sooooo much! was so moved by the wedding, scenery, peace of local town and hospitality & mentality of japanese people. the special thing is also the first time traveling in japan by rental car. sooooo free and relax~~
the church was so beauty and superb. tiny chapel was in snowy white and the altar was a transparent french window with endless bright blue sky and jade water. just like fairy tale, so dreamy. during the wedding, i burst into tears when hearing the groom said :” with this ring, i promise my love…..” and there was a lady singer (japanese) who sang beautifully like black pro singer (unbelievable!). she started with ”u r so beautiful”, ended with the song : you raise me up.
staying in japan, made me so much want to pick up my previous plan for study full time japanese in there for a year . i have been struggling. having had a long time chat with the married couple , james and family, i made the decision. right now, the feeling is complex. i know i am making a stupid decision since there is a break through in my career , but i still wanna do it. life is short (reminded by recent news : the pass-away of the former famous movie star dik na) also i was inspired by mum on the bus to shenzhen, she said women is different from man, as we all have stage. we got to do the right thing in different stage! right now i am going to step into another stage! pls pray for meeee.
roller coaster 16/01/2010
10th – i went to ka and cathay website and applied for something. strange action, huh?
11th – duty starts i was very tensed since need to have too much workload and meetings.
14th – classic! 13th no sleeps. went to airport at 0630. met owner for first time in my life for celebrity and impressed he could even remember my name as phoebe. I am his fan now. He’s looking so cool! . at 1815, got an email to learn about the title change. shock and complicated. honestly no happy feeling at ALL! yet keep receiving congrats message. i am so fake!
15th – super busy and worked till 2200. intended to join hotpot dinner with mum’s birthday yet received phone call from shenzhen for quote when heading back home at lai king. i missed mum’s birthday without seeing her.shame!
16th – filled out the forms for japan working/holiday visa and feeling excited about it ( i feel shock by the excitement too) pick me plssssssssssssss! good excuse to leave…
roller coaster week yet complicated feelings. only feel the pressure yet no joys in it. worry about the future without reliefs. would i have the guts to pull it a full stop? dunno, may be let’s see……
i miss the church in sat/sun which i didn’t go for a while, i so much wanna go next week.
moody 10/01/2010
recently, very confused about myself, especially the job. I feel so lost… I want to give up so much…
goal 14/12/2009
this year, i aim to finish the whole series of harry potter, and catch up with the movies… it’s now all behind the schedule (finished half of “half blood prince). but i dun wanna rush it and ruin the joy of reading. so i think i m gonna take it slowly. next year, i wanna finish at least 6 new books (10 would be the best).
In 2010, i aim to learn photo shooting (photography). mainly about the composition. i aim to take an interesting picture by self learning. talking about not just using a dslr, but an ordinary dc, or even iphone.
meanwhile, i also wanna retake the level 2 exam of japanese proficiency test next year. considering the working/holiday visa of japan.
Dun be greedy 13/12/2009
Just pls remember that. Then will be whole lot more happier. Chan Sui ling, pls pls pls! Think about whot u really need! Discard the thinking of people-want-whot-u-want-whot plsssssssss
write in english 13/12/2009
reason of having another blog in there is : my dear friend desmond. he got his dear iphone recently and he fully utilized it, even writing blog (so not “him”). i also wanna update my blog anytime and anywhere. though not good in writing in english, pardon me for the wrong grammar and spelling, or even msn-style-chin-english. Still, it’s quicker to type…
i realized that every time i have a mood to write, it’s all the down time or in bad mood… apologize for expressing so much negative energy…..still , i am learning to use “haha” concept everyday. Bad time, i will ” haha” laugh away the bad stuffs….Good time, of coz ” haha” to hear the noisy laughter of myself.
Recently i feel kind of lonely, mainly at work. I dunno why, feeling very insecure in many ways. i know i am a paranoid person, always sensitive by the surrounding. still i dunno how to fight this feeling. at the same time, i hate myself being like this, i have to be mature since i am not a kid any more…
anyway, i will survive. my career goal is still the same, a librarian assistant in tung chung public library (i heard the cheering, thanks!)
